i think i might have actually tricked myself into a self-care routine this past year i give myself eggs every morning, toast, a coffee, the dose (increasing by the month!!), some water, and every daily exfoliation scrubs off a little more of the man. i moisturize twice daily to seal myself into my self. moisture lotion sealing sacrament beauty health entropy death the pullover i chopped off at the belly now reads THIS IS MY HALLOWEEN hovering over the stubble of my HAPPY TRAIL a cop drives up the hill while i smoke on the patio in this chilly weather. every punk house reflex raises middle fingers, wasted shows, drug paranoia, collegiate pretension, goddamn nudity streak, ugly fucking truth i am angry about so many things but i am not angry about my body right now.